Hey!!! How's your summer?? Mine has been incredible and horrible at the same time. Well you see... I went to this AMAZING camp that really touched my heart and made me grow closer to God. The people i met were ever so friendly and the facility... WOW... just WOW. But there was one person in particular that I really liked. In fact I've liked him for a long time but we only talked when my best friend introduced him to me.
I was like "OMG OMG OMG!!!!" Inside and "h-h-hi" on the outside. I'm EXTREMELY shy when it comes to dudes i crush on. So anyway he was being very nice and sweet to me during camp and everytime i think about the events that happened in camp i just cant stop thinking about him. I guess you could say i was in love... but i never really found out the feeling of being "in love" so i was really confused.
The week after camp he was always chatting with me and being the nice person he naturally is so i thought we had a "connection" cause he said stuff like "i miss you" and "you're really pretty" which are things i never really hear about myself so i was overwhelmed by what he was saying to me. When i finally asked my cousin to be me in on Facebook... they talked about movies (cause we are both movie people) and other stuff. Basiclly the conversation went like this (BTW my cousin is a flirt THIS IS NOT ME!!!)
Cousin acting like me: Soo... do you like me (<----- after wards i was like WHY THE HELL DID YOU ASK THAT?!?!?!)
Him: Listen... i like you.... But as a friend (<----- OOOOOOO FRIENDZONED)
Cousin: Oh ok :( .....
Me: YOU'RE TALKING TO MY COUSIN OK??
Basically what i am trying to say here is that Expectations lead to disapointments... if you like a guy dont expect to much because they might not like you back. I really dont want any of you to end up like me... But it wouldn't hurt to ask. Who knows?? He might like you and you guys could be an item!!! That would be amazing right?? Anyway i couldnt process what he said to me.... then i remembered he was part of the encouraging team... it's technically his JOB to tell girls that they are pretty. That hit me pretty bad... but not bad enough that i cried myself to sleep everynight. i said to myself "if he doesnt like me then FINE he's missing a great friend " so yeah... we're in good terms now but i will never forget what he said to me....
-Me :)
Songs:
~Radioactive by Imagine Dragons
~Still Into You by Paramore
